It was three years ago when my marriage died. There were symptoms, but I would always look the other way. I married so young, I thought, I only have to wait until time heals every thing. For me God was distant, nowhere to be found when I decided to end it all. Two children, and many ‘well intentioned’ friends, saying so many lies, which I believed at the time, not really knowing  my palms were slowly and dangerously facing down.

I was closing my hands and my life, to the best present God had given me 18 years ago. The father of my children, the man who God had hand picked for me, before I was even born. How could I have known then, that a wonderful marriage is not built on my own strength, but on the perfect plans God has for me?

I hurt, I cried, I felt I was in the middle of a raging storm,  I really wondered if God had forgotten about me, and my two children. I was so wrong, I had rejected His wonderful present, listening to the words of the world, the poisonous words that said: ‘you married the wrong man, there will be someone better for you’.

I had been listening to the wrong voices all along, so in the midst of all the suffering I paused, and listened to one person. One bright and windy morning when we were climbing a mountain, just for exercise and fun, in the middle of the pine trees he said “God rejoices in love, He can work miracles, and He can heal broken marriages, I have seen His glory, He will do it for you too!”. I never saw this person again, and I have never forgotten these words, because at the time, they sounded like the wind that was blowing, like the water of the creek we had just crossed, but now those words mean everything to me. Those are the words of truth that set me free from the pain, the guilt and the sadness.

From that day on, this person must have prayed for me, my marriage, and my children. A fresh wind began blowing through the pain, and God’s love slowly started bringing hope into our lives. The Lord softly taught me I had to let go, because my hands were busy trying to grasp the scraps the world offers when we are down surrounded by guilt and sorrow. My hands needed to make room for what was really worthy and eternal.

God began whispering his words of truth to me, gently opening up my hands to receive a husband, a father a family, forgiveness, love and so much more. I learnt that with out God, there is no relationship in life worth saving. With out God I walk in blindness, and my palms up, remind me that it is by trusting him I will see the light. My palms up are always ready for his unique gifts of mercy. What touches me the most is that I do not deserve these presents, but He puts them in my open hands any way, and that brings me closer to His heart, and changes mine.

I remember that day at the mountain, walking side by side with this heaven sent stranger, and I smile, because God had always been there beside me, holding my palms up,  I was just too distracted listening to the storm, and holding on to my fears.

Thank you Lord for all the wonderful gifts you put in my palms, sometimes they may not look so good at all, but you are perfect in turning sour into sweetness.  All the glory and praise are for You.

Through this wonderful experience I cannot but hold on to this verse, and live by it when the strong winds begin to blow.

“Love the Lord your God with all heart and with all your soul  and with all your strength.” Deuteronomy 6:5 NIV

 

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  1. Sue
    Aug 08, 2013 @ 13:20:35

    Oh wow, Adri! What an amazing story of God’s grace and restoration! That person that spoke those words to you may never know the impact their obedience had on your life this side of eternity, but praise the Lord they obeyed and you listened. Praise the Lord for what He has done in your marriage, family, and life! Palms Up in Praise!! Thank you so much for sharing!

    Love, Sue (OBS Leader)

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    • Adri Mosquera
      Aug 09, 2013 @ 02:41:07

      Thank you Sue! You are right, this person blessed me, and my family by his obedience, and I think many blessings came to his life as well. Sometimes I have chosen not to speak up when I hear God’s voice, but not any more! Palms up in praise! Thanks for reading.

      Love, Adri

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  2. I Choose Bunnys and Flowers
    Aug 08, 2013 @ 13:55:27

    Adri, thank you so much for sharing. Your story could have been written by me many years ago, but you put it so much more eloquently than I could have. This touched my heart, and I could feel the pain, the sorrow, and the rejoicing in the renewal in your words. May you continue to seek God and may He continue to shine brightly in your life.

    Connie

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    • Adri Mosquera
      Aug 09, 2013 @ 02:36:33

      Dear Connie, thanks so much for reading, and for sharing we both walked similar paths. From many, many miles away, I pray God shines His love in your life too.
      Adri

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  3. Joyce
    Aug 09, 2013 @ 12:31:27

    Adri, Thanks for sharing from your heart. This is one of the best things I like about OBS is that I can sit in my kitchen at 5:30 in the morning and read encouraging stories. I loved when you wrote, “The Lord softly taught me I had to let go, because my hands were busy trying to grasp the scraps the world offers…My hands needed to make room for what was really worthy and eternal.” I too need to empty my hands first so there is room to put what God wants in them. #palmsup prayer for us both!

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    • Adri Mosquera
      Aug 09, 2013 @ 12:44:40

      Thank you for reading Joyce, there are so many things I have learnt from this OBS, and one of them, is being able to have a glimpse inside the lives of wonderful ladies like you, and read about their perseverance to say yes to God. Palms up in praise and prayer for us both! Blessings.

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  4. Valarie
    Aug 10, 2013 @ 18:18:18

    What a moving story and testimony of God’s faithfulness. You encouraged me today. Out of almost 400 sites.. the Holy Spirit led me to you, Adri. I have a similar story as well.

    I have been praying for Restoration after being divorced 4 years. I came to a relationship with Christ during my divorce. I have felt like it was all “too late” – so many regrets and the thought… you wish you could have a “do over” in life. But what I know is that God is not surprised.. and in fact- he uses our poor choices and mistakes to ultimately bring Him Glory!! That’s what it’s all about- not living perfectly but rather, allowing the Father’s love to shine through us. It’s a testimony of HIS mercy and Goodness.

    Had you never lost your husband, you’d have never known the Master Carpenter.. Jesus, ALONE gave you a brand new marriage and family. Jesus doesn’t just patch up our brokenness.. He makes us brand new! “If any person be in Christ, he is a new Creation. The old is gone; all has become new.” 2 Cor 5:17

    Oh how I’d love to sit and have coffee with all you gals! Isn’t God amazing? He is so much bigger than our mistakes. NOTHING can stop God when we allow Him to work in our lives. The Lord has taken your mess, and made it a message. Praise to the Father.. and His loving heart toward the Prodigal. He longs for His children and searches far and wide.

    May we all be that voice of encouragement today. Let us be bold in declaring, like the woman Adri met on the mountain, “Nothing is too hard for our God. He delights in bringing miracles to His people.”

    God bless you all. The Mighty Hand of the Lord is with you. Whatever you are believing for… trust that Jesus is with you- even if the mountain seems impassable. He will bring the Victory in His way, and in His timing.

    Valarie

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    • Adri Mosquera
      Aug 11, 2013 @ 23:38:30

      Valarie, thank you so much for listening to the Holy Spirit when He brought you here. You really touched my heart with your words. God only knows how separation and divorce steal the joy of His presence from our lives, because if we knew it wouldn’t be such a ‘virus’ like it is today. I really loved what you wrote: “He uses our poor choices and mistakes to ultimately bring Him Glory!! That’s what it’s all about- not living perfectly but rather, allowing the Father’s love to shine through us. It’s a testimony of HIS mercy and Goodness”. I love it, because in my search for the ‘perfect life’, I was forgetting He loves me just as imperfect as I am.
      I also hope, that one day we will have a nice cup of coffee that will warm our souls.

      Love, Adri

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